To me today

I am all into silence today, wishing nothing but to be completely quiet, without moving, just feeling.
This makes I am even disconnected from myself, just feeling.

Ever since the emotion disappeared I am opening up more and more. The energies are all over my body and bring me to a place of total devotional humbleness.

I played the Dhyan Yogi chants you send me, and my whole heart area lightened up.
I feel such humbleness and gratefullness.
I am at your feet, resting there, with complete devotion, complete happiness. 

Just resting.

The feeling takes me more and more, is growing bigger than my body and is really ecstatic.
There is nothing I desire more than to be with you, bowing down, not even kissing or holding you, just bowing down and resting at your feet.
I can hardly write you by the intensity of this feeling. It sweeps me out of any activity.

The energies are now as strong as when we were together yesterday. It feels indeed as one field.

This morning I remembered I had an appointment this afternoon: I canceled it, because I want to be there when you call. After yesterdays conversation it feels wrong to not be there, all I want is to feel you again, to be with God and my respect and commitment towards you made me just want to be in humble expectation of you.